Escapist

Some days you just want to have that day. That day when you just want to drive away without any particular destination, just letting yourself take you anywhere until you decide where to go. Then after some time, pull over the car to an uncrowded beach and listen to the sound of waves and watch the reflection of sun as it glitters in the water. Swim a bit, drink, eat, and swim some more. After a while, pack your things and drive away again and again until you reach an uncrowded park. An uncrowded place is what you look for because some days you just want to isolate/detach yourself from the world. And yes, there, in that park, you lay on the grass under the shade of a huge tree. Feel the gentleness of wind as you stare at the moving clouds. You read a book or two until the sun begins to set. And again, you drive away, pulling the windows down, letting the gush of wind blow your hair in the air as the orange light touches your face, the haziest hint that the night is soon approaching. And then, you pull over the side of the road overlooking the rest of the city. You smile as you stare at all the flickering lights down below from houses and buildings. You let out a sigh of happiness and you think at the back of your mind, so this is how it's like to witness the world from above. You feel relieved and amazed at the sight of it for all the loneliness, heartbreak and whatever kind of pain present down there seemed so small, even invisible, from where you are. At last, the sun has set and the scintillating stars are uniformly spread out across the blanket of sky. You stay a bit longer and gaze upon the beauty not just of the stars, but of it all. You breathe air, and hold it for a few moments before you let it out. Finally, you whisper to yourself before driving home; I want to have this day again. 

Year-End

It is 6.46am of Dec. 25,2013 as I am typing this post.Yes, Christmas!!! Merry Christmas, everyone :) 

With only 6 days left for 2013, I reckon it's safe to say that this year has been willlldddd. 2013 has been a year of massive challenges and blessings for my family. 

As most of you know, my dad resigned from his former job for about 2 years ago, which basically makes him an unemployed person for 2 years. More to that, my mom also resigned a few years earlier than my dad, which makes them both unemployed. A year ago, I stopped school mainly because of two reasons; first was financial issues and the second one, I decided to just keep to myself.  I would be hypocrite to say that it was 'easy breezy' to have undergone all those challenges. It wasn't. It was insanely hard, to be honest. But it was bearable. Well, everything we undergo is bearable. As the old proverb goes, 'God never gives a burden you can't bear'. And true enough, we were able to surpass every obstacle. God has been so faithful in our lives. It's insane. Imagine both of your parents are unemployed with electricity and water bills to pay and other necessities to sustain,  plus 2 kids who are both enrolled in private schools (I was still studying by this time). That went on for 2 years. Imagine. How were we able to survive? I don't know any better answer than because God sustains us. He has blessed my dad with projects enough (and sometimes more than enough)  to sustain us for a whole year. It wasn't a stable job, though. We never know whenever another project's coming up and there were times when we worry about our expenses but just then, God grants another project! TWO YEARS WITHOUT PERMANENT JOB OF BOTH PARENTS YET WE NEVER MISSED A SINGLE MEAL IN A DAY. I just had to capitalize and bold it because I am just so amazed. Life is full of uncertainties but when you have God, you have nothing to worry about. And another massive blessing I've received this year is that I went back to school (and it's a good school!). I swear I still don't have any idea how we are able to pay my school expenses (and my brother's who's also enrolled in a private school) considering that my mom is still completely unemployed and my dad has no permanent job. I have no intention to boast about us going to private schools, what I am boasting about here is my amazing awesome wonderful great God who sustains us in a completely insane and mysterious way we never know how He does it!!! I am highly grateful to Him because He has never left/abandoned us. He has given us huge blessings even when sometimes I feel like I don't deserve it. He is amazing just that. And I believe He can do the same amazing things to you! 

As 2013 ends, I hope you reflect back on what God has blessed you this year. You think it may not be as grand as the others, but I believe there are no 'small' blessings. Everything is just as amazing as the others such as you are still able to pay your bills, you still have your job, you still have time to be with your loved ones, you are still able to breathe air, you are still able to see the sun and the stars and the skies, you are still alive & you are still able to gaze upon the beauty of what God has made. There are millions of blessings you receive, you just have to realize it. Together, let us look forward to another year full of challenges (because it is ever so present) but more of blessings to come! God bless us all :) 

apparently, i'm interesting...

I never really labeled myself as a "cool" kid. Never did I consider myself as someone who'd catch other's attention. If you've read my previous blog posts, you'll know that I mentioned, most of the time I go unnoticed. So when someone recently told me 'you're interesting', my initial reaction was 'I am??!' 

I will never know whether that person was telling the truth or not. But for a moment, it offered me a bit of confidence. It's nice to know that someone still notices you even though you're not, in any way, noticeable.